"the rollercoaster that God forgot to finish laying the track for"

FUCK how I love that right now. If I could rewind to say THANK YOU for GETTING me, I would.  If I could rewind to be that person again, in that time again, I would.  In a heartbeat.  Life just keeps going though.

Sometimes I really do wish I could at least direct the god damned train car a little.  At least.  Seriously.  We will all survive this, right?  I can deal with pain and suffering, but we have to keep on breathing.  I'm so scared she won't.  And if she doesn't, I won't.  Not because I'm being a whiny bitch.  Because my love for her, for them, is bigger than life, is more.