Saturday, October 27, 2007

Heading down the freeway in the dark

I'm in texas, here to help my bestest bud move home to washington. I'm exhausted.

Friday, October 12, 2007

So I just read the my posts for the last year, October through October. I'm not sure what prompted that, except that I'm home alone tonight for the first time in a long time, and there it was. It's definitely been a ride. So many ups and downs, so much craziness. I've spent the better part of an hour sitting here crying, and that makes me sad as much as anything, because really my life is pretty darned good now. Things have come full circle for me, and I am in a good place. I notice I've almost completely stopped blogging when I'm not upset or depressed, and that's a terrible depiction of my life, because there has been so much great stuff happening in the last year. I've met some incredible people, had some amazing (and crazy, and stupid, and fun, and silly, and profound, and heart wrenching, and, and, and...) experiences, and I should do a better job of ensuring that my blog reflects that.

Tomorrow is our annual trip to the pumpkin patch for hayrides, pumpkins, corn mazes, hay mazes, cider, all that good stuff. I love fall!

Sunday, October 07, 2007

See here, see here -> -> ->

It's almost NaBloPoMo time again. For those of you who don't know what NaBloPoMo is, run away now while you are still blissfully ignorant! :) I'm kidding, really. *wink, wink...really...* NaBloPoMo is National Blog Posting Month. If you commit yourself to it you're supposed to blog every day for the entire month of November. I signed on last year thinking it was a good opportunity to force myself to be a better blogger. I wanted to write more, write more often, write better, wanted to force myself to take advantage more fully of the opportunity that is blogging. I thought it was a great intention. As it turned out, my whole world fell apart last November, and NaBloPoMo forced me to work through my pain, to put it in words and let it out, rather than internalizing everything like I always do. NaBloPoMo got me through that month and helped me keep my sanity! 30 days hath November, but last November I posted a whopping 51 times.

This year my goals are a lot more humble, and pretty close to the ones I started out with at the beginning of NaBloPoMo last year. I want to write every day - something, anything really, but I want to come back to my blog, get in the habit of writing again. I want to write about something other than tragedy or pain or loss. I want to write about what's in my heart, in my brain. I want to write about what interests me, what happens to me, whatever really, but I want to write. Every day. That's all.

Friday, October 05, 2007

Take a little snooze...

Wow. An entire month and a half without posting. I wish I could say real life was just so good, so interesting, that i got caught up in it and forgot about this thing I have here. Unfortunately, that's not the case. Life has just been incredibly hectic and rather lackluster. I've been so stressed, so rushed, so completely buried, that I haven't had time to breathe, much less write (or take pictures - soon Neal, soon, if you're still interested in that painting even). My head hurts all the time. I'm nauseous all the time. I'm lost in my crazy little numbered work world. I'm adjusting to this weird new life I've created at home. I cry a lot, mostly for no apparent reason. None of this makes for very good or interesting writing. Someday I will find time to breathe, time to find myself, time to spill my brain on these pages again. I really hope it's someday soon, because I really miss this outlet. Now if that wasn't the drollest post ever...