Thursday, May 24, 2007

Ugly dreams, the smell of garlic

It's a little after 6 am and i'm in a motel 6 in Gilroy california. I've never been so happy to have my alarm go off after only 6 hours of sleep because i just woke from a nightmare so vivid that i feel ill and i just can't shake it. In my dream there was a man out to get me, trying to kill me. He chased me all over town as i ran from him, hid from him. He was playing mind games - leaving little clues and messing with my mind. When i evaded him he kidnapped my girls and then dan who was my husband in my screwy dream. They were sending me all over town on wild goose chases and i was frantic to get to my babies, to find dan, to save them. This man was after me, chasing me, and i hid under a bush. I was laying there, my heart pounding out of my chest, trying so hard not to make a sound, scared for my life, frantic to find my family, desperate to stay alive, and my alarm clock went off. I'm incredibly relieved to come back to reality, but it was so real that i can't get rid of it. I feel like i left life undone, like i failed.

Monday, May 21, 2007

One more night in Texas...

I had a great weekend. It was really good seeing Bobbie again so soon, spending more time with her. I'm totally spoiled by 2 weekends in a row. Texas is beautiful, the sunshine and storms are amazing, and musty musky humidity really sucks. It's going to be really hard to leave in the morning, but by 10am I'll be in San Diego with Steph. I *think* we're going to spend a little time there with her hubby, and then we're driving up the California Coast and home. It should be an awesome week!

Bobbie at the Reuinion Tower in Dallas

downtown Dallas from the Reunion Tower

Mr. Markie

My Michael monkey

Texas sky from the tower

Friday, May 18, 2007

I am a total freakin basket case. It's nothing, and it's everything, and I am just so sick of it. I can go along just fine for weeks, and then the world hits me like a freight train all over again. You know, I kind of like freight trains too, but it's just too much. All I want to do is go home, crawl under the covers, and cry, but instead I'm scrambling to wrap things up at work (yeah, right), run errands, get packed, and catch a midnight flight to Texas to spend time with my friend who just told her husband she's not happy with her marriage. THAT should be a blast... They'll be fun to be around together I'm sure. Talk about stress relief. I'm trying so hard not to just burst in to tears. What a silly mess I am.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Thursday, May 10, 2007

she made herself a halo

I love storms!

Bobbie sent me these videos from her cell phone... They are having some AWESOME storms in Texas right now! And guess what?!?! My Bobbie will be here tomorrow!! She is flying in tomorrow morning to spend the weekend with the girls and I! I am sooo excited. The girls would be too, except that they don't know yet. It'll be an awesome surprise when she picks them up from school tomorrow. I can't wait to see her - it's been a LOOOONG 6 months. We're continuing the mothers day tradition we started last year, walking in the Y-me National Breast Cancer Organization's Mother's Day Walk in Seattle. Yay!

Awesome churning clouds:

flashes in the sky:

Check out the lightening at the end of this one!

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Feeling crafty today...

I think I might have to pull out my sewing machine this week...
(and I think I might have to become Super Woman to find the time, but that's another issue entirely)

I am loving these pretty things today:
LOVE this bag

and LOVE LOVE this bag

I LOVE lavender, and I LOVE patchwork. Hmmmm.

I TOTALLY love these birds....

and how cute is this bag? I obviously have a thing for bags right now.

This is absolutely adorable...

I really like this too.

I love the stitching on this one...


Thursday, May 03, 2007